--shit's supposed to record my voice? Why the fuck would I want to leave a message on this thing anyway? They should know who the fuck they're calling if they're calling me in the first place, and obviously I'm not gonna pick up if I don't like them so...
I really like it too. I mean, I do miss home a lot...but I don't really wanna leave here either.
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I was talking 'bout this to a friend of mind recently. I actually went home for a little while...sorta. Do you know about the thing where sometimes you can go to sleep out of nowhere for a week or so, and when you wake up it'll feel like you've been back home a while?
Well, apparently I just passed out while walking down the street. I didn't know what happened until I woke up and someone told me. But it wasn't like dreaming. I think I really actually went home...somehow.
And I was only asleep for a week, but it felt like I was back home for months.
Mhm. I guess once you're back there's not really much you can do...especially since you won't remember anything anyway. ...I feel worse for the people left behind, actually.
[.......wow this....conversation did take a turn, didn't it?]
Oh shit, yeah, that'd be fucking awful. I had one of my friends leave but I didn't think about it like that. I mean, what if you have people here that you're super close to and then you go home and you leaving is just really, really bad for them? I mean, my one friend gets weird and sad and I can't see him taking me leaving well at all. And if I'm not here to pester him until he leaves the house, he'll probably stay in there until he starves or something!!
Yeah. I mean, I've tried to just not think about it...but that doesn't mean it can't happen. I've gotten close to it...and I've already had a couple of good friends leave.
[...and if Joker left, he honestly isn't sure what he would do.]
I think that's why it's good to just...not worry about it, really, but just know that it could happen, yaknow? And there's not really anything we can do about it. I think your friend would probably realize that, too.
Yeah... I'm sure he does. I just hope nothing like that happens to him. He really doesn't deserve that shit, y'know?
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Well, okay, he does deserve that shit, but I don't like seeing him like that. It's just... I dunno the word for it. Pathetic? Though it's not negative, exactly. "Pathetic" is something I associate with being bad, while this is less... shit. I don't know how to explain it. It's something I don't want to see him deal with because he's... sorta like me, I guess? I wouldn't call myself pathetic, after all.
[SORRY THIS IS SO CONFUSING, JIMMY. He's just trying to get his thoughts in order and apparently that involves vomiting them at you.]
[IT'S OKAY, honestly if there were anyone you would want to just dump all your feelings on, it'd be Jimmy.]
I...I think I understand what you're saying. You just don't want to see him have to go through something like that, whether he does deserve it or not. And that's not really a bad thing...that's normal to want that, I think.
I'm not all that good at dealing with feelings and shit, so... I'll try not to do that again, that's kind of a lot to have to deal with out of nowhere.
[He laughs, though he doesn't sound bothered now. Apparently Naki is really good at bouncing back.]
Thanks for talking to me about it though! I've got some shit to think about, but I don't think it'll be all that bad.
You're a pretty great kid, you know that? I'll keep that in mind, but I try not to think about shit like that. Life's too short to constantly be worrying.
Hey, yeah! That's exactly what I think! There's no sense in worrying about something that might happen, right? If you spend all your time worrying about it, then the time you do spend here won't be very good at all.
[Just try to enjoy being able to eat cake while you can.]
Yup! Anyways, I've got a whole lot more chocolate to mail off to folks, so I guess I better get back to work on that. I hope you have a nice rest of your Valentine's, Naki!
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[Hang on, let him count...]
Holy shit, it's like, five months or something. That's fucking crazy.
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[TIME FLIES WHEN YOU'RE HAVING FUN. Right.]
But there are a lot of people who have been here even longer than that.
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[Well, maybe not the place itself because Goldenrod isn't Tokyo, but there are some awesome Pokémon and people here!]
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[...]
I was talking 'bout this to a friend of mind recently. I actually went home for a little while...sorta. Do you know about the thing where sometimes you can go to sleep out of nowhere for a week or so, and when you wake up it'll feel like you've been back home a while?
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And I was only asleep for a week, but it felt like I was back home for months.
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[And that's...really sad and upsetting, at least in Jimmy's opinion.]
But when I woke up I remembered...everything from here and from when I was back home. It's...really hard to explain.
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[He wouldn't be really good friends with Tsukiyama. That's distressing.]
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Mhm. I guess once you're back there's not really much you can do...especially since you won't remember anything anyway. ...I feel worse for the people left behind, actually.
[.......wow this....conversation did take a turn, didn't it?]
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[...oh dear.]
Oh shit, yeah, that'd be fucking awful. I had one of my friends leave but I didn't think about it like that. I mean, what if you have people here that you're super close to and then you go home and you leaving is just really, really bad for them? I mean, my one friend gets weird and sad and I can't see him taking me leaving well at all. And if I'm not here to pester him until he leaves the house, he'll probably stay in there until he starves or something!!
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[...and if Joker left, he honestly isn't sure what he would do.]
I think that's why it's good to just...not worry about it, really, but just know that it could happen, yaknow? And there's not really anything we can do about it. I think your friend would probably realize that, too.
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[.................]
Well, okay, he does deserve that shit, but I don't like seeing him like that. It's just... I dunno the word for it. Pathetic? Though it's not negative, exactly. "Pathetic" is something I associate with being bad, while this is less... shit. I don't know how to explain it. It's something I don't want to see him deal with because he's... sorta like me, I guess? I wouldn't call myself pathetic, after all.
[SORRY THIS IS SO CONFUSING, JIMMY. He's just trying to get his thoughts in order and apparently that involves vomiting them at you.]
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I...I think I understand what you're saying. You just don't want to see him have to go through something like that, whether he does deserve it or not. And that's not really a bad thing...that's normal to want that, I think.
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[Hell, Tsukiyama's been better to him than everyone from Aogiri put together.]
Wow, I didn't mean to just throw feelings like that at you, that was kinda shitty.
[He's also really surprised he didn't end up crying...]
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Oh no, it's alright! I know stuff like this can be kinda...really confusing sometimes. 'Specially if you haven't been here that long.
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[He laughs, though he doesn't sound bothered now. Apparently Naki is really good at bouncing back.]
Thanks for talking to me about it though! I've got some shit to think about, but I don't think it'll be all that bad.
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It's not a problem! You're my friend, so if you ever do wanna talk about anything, you can always come to me if you need it.
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Hey, yeah! That's exactly what I think! There's no sense in worrying about something that might happen, right? If you spend all your time worrying about it, then the time you do spend here won't be very good at all.
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[...It's not like he really gets to back home, after all...]
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Yup! Anyways, I've got a whole lot more chocolate to mail off to folks, so I guess I better get back to work on that. I hope you have a nice rest of your Valentine's, Naki!
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Yeah, I will! You too, Jimmy. Oh, and remind me to get you something in return at some point, even if it's just a cake!
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